To Say Goodbyes

    Calla’s POV

    As I look around the hospital as Gwen basically drags me in. As we enter the hospital. I’ve always hated them and now here I am in a hospital that gives off a creepy feeling.

    I sigh as Gwen leads me to the check in desk and then too the coma ward. As we walk inside I sigh as I sit at Cassie’s bedside.

    “Hey, it’s been awhile hasn’t it,” I joke, “I’m sorry that I haven’t come in  a while. It’s just I’ve been scared and after everything happened recently I’m not sure you’ll recognize me at all. I look completely different. I don’t think I recognize who I am these last few hours. I guess you would just see someone like a stranger at your bed side. Though it’s surprising I still have that annoying birthmark on my wrist that looks like I got bitten that I hide under my bracelet. Something out of everyone only you know… I guess now Mrs. Gwen but that’s about it. I wanted to give you an answer to your confession. I finally had the courage to come back too say this too you, Miss. Cassie Cooper I want to say that I like you as well, but I’m not sure if it’s in the way you’d like me too. I wish I could find out, but since your confession Mike and I broke up… that night actually. I haven’t dated anyone in these last 4 years. I can’t let myself for some reason I keep finding flaws. I guess you were right about a lot of things… as always I hated it when you were right. I can’t do this,” I stand up and put my hands on Cassie’s shoulders knowing I’m crying, “Cassie wake up. Fine I’ll tell you the truth I like you to, but I’ve always wanted to be normal for my parents. The sad part after the incident and Mike and I broke up my mother told me she thought you and me were always far more suited to be together than me with him. Can you believe it my bigot mother had said that?”

    I watch as I swear a muscle twitches near her lips as if she had smiled for a mere millisecond.

    I move my hands too her cheeks as I lean my head against her forehead, “I love you, Cassie. I always will love you, but I think this will be my goodbye to you.”

    I remove my forehead from her and I lean down too give it a kiss on her forehead and I look at her lips and I can’t bring myself to give them a kiss. I don’t have the right to kiss her. I’m part of the reason she’s like this. No, I’m the main reason. Though Cassie has a cousin out here she didn’t want to come. She didn’t want to party she wanted to spend some time alone with me. I was so stupid to drag her out there like that. It’s all my fault.

    “Gwen, it was all my fault wasn’t it?”

    “No, it wasn’t,” she answers and I turn around to her.

    “It is. It is my fault. I think she was going to wait out on her confession for when we were more alone She wanted us to stay in London and hang out at her apartment. Instead I pressured her to come with us. It’s all my fault.”

    “Gwen, you came to see Cassie again,” one of the nurses asks.

    “No, I brought a friend of her’s from London with me this time.”

    “That’s great, but did you hear the wonderful news?”

    “What news?”

    “It seems someone had paid her bill.”

    “Who did?”

    “I’m not sure, but it was a kind girl though. She said that Cassie was a friend of her’s and she wanted to help her family.”

    That’s something I’d say… but how could that be.

    I look at Gwen and she has a little bit of tears in her eyes. Though what the nurse said sounds like something that I would do if I had the type of money.

    I put a hand over my mouth as I feel tears start to flow as I fall too my knees by Cassie’s bed, “I’m sorry, Cass. It’s all my fault.”

    I feel a hand on my shoulder too see Gwen look at me, “Trust me when I say this. Calla it’s not your fault Cassie loved you more than anything. THe one that failed is me. I keep thinking I could have saved my cousin that night, but here we are and she’s still hurt. She’s still lying on this bed asleep and there’s nothing we can do to change that.”

    That’s what you say, but if that Doctor guy is right then that person who paid the bill could have really been me. Still how would I have the kind of money too do such a thing. I’m sure after how long it’ll I’ll come up with an idea too save her.

    I look at the door too see the Doctor coming in with Harkness.

    “Calla, have you decided if you want to come with or not?”

    “Truthfully, it wouldn’t hurt to see what the worlds out there are like then, now, and will be are gonna be like. Plus finding me my parents is also important. The most logical way would to travel with you and get hints through time.”

    He nods his head and I can’t help but to think that he reminds me of someone that I had once known.

    “Calla, are you alright?”

    I nod my head as I look away, “I’m fine. I was just thinking that you reminded me of someone that I once knew, but I’m not sure if that would be possible.”

    “I’m not sure I’ve met a lot of people in my life. I couldn’ say if I know you or anything. Plus you’re a Time Lord for all I know you’ve changed your looks before.”

    I nod my head and I sigh as I sit back down in my chair by Cassie’s side, “I’m sorry, Cass. I forgot for a second that you were here.”

    I’m not sure how long I’m asleep but it’s almost like when I open my eyes I’m in a dream.

    “What are you two doing over here?” Jared asks eying Cass’s hand that’s on my wrist. “Cass, are you fucking kidding me?”

    Everyone in the group knows that I’m bi so he must be taking it as Cass and I trying too get together. Though it’s not like it was a lie.

    I’m waiting for him too grab her and when he does I pull her too my side and I glare at him, “Jared do you know how dangerous this is? Those creatures are still down there. If you really loved you or anything of the sort you would let her do what she wants and be with who she wants. What if she fell? She’d probably die.”

    As I finish yellin me he let’s her go and she falls on the roof. He grabs me by the neck and I’m calm as I look at him then the ground, “Go ahead I dare you.”

    “Why?” He spits in my face, ‘Why did you do this too me?”

    I look at him as I’m back towards the edge of the roof, “It’s not my fault. Cass and I seem to like each other is there a problem with that. If so push me off this roof. I dare you. Though I know you won’t not just cause you want her to be happy, but because you don’t have the fucking balls.”

    I watch as Cass seems worried and I know that she’s worried for me. I give her a look that I think will calm her, but as Jared holds me there I lose my patience. I knock him on his ass, but I lose balance. Luckily I fall forward and I land in Cassie’s arms. While Mike is standing back looking at us.

    I look at her and she nods her head, “So you knew what I was going to say.”

    I smile at her as I nod my head and place my hand on her cheek, “Cass, I might be busy, but I’m not stupid or blind. I know the way you look at me. I just never said anything cause I’m dating Mike and well I didn’t want Jared to freak out. Good thing he’s a bit winded right now.” I look up at my boyfriend and I say the words I wanted to say before all this happened, “I’m sorry, Mike. I can’t date you anymore.”

    He smiles sadly as he looks between us, “I know. I’ve known for awhile I was just hoping it was in my head. I know you’ll be happier with her so go ahead.”

    I smile as everyone seems to back away from Cass and me. As they back up I pull Cassie towards me as I give her a sweet kiss. I keep her close by until we need to breathe.

    “I love you, Cassie.”

    “I love you, to. Calla it’s okay for you too go. You don’t need to feel guilty I’ll be here waiting for you too come back no matter what face you’ll have you’ll always be the woman I fell in love with.”

    I sit up and look around to see that It was simply a dream like I knew it was, but there seemed to be something so real about it.

    I look up too see the Doctor looking curious.

    “What?”

    “Nothing it’s just her brain activity had gone up when you had fallen asleep next to her. As if the two of you entered each other’s minds.”

    “Which would mean she might not be human?”

    I shrug my shoulders, “From what I found out I’m not even human anymore… I was never human.”

    ‘So what.’

    I look over at Cass hoping that she was already awake, but her eyes are still closed. I noticed that she has one of the matching rings i had given too her a while back saying that with it we’d always be connected. I had just recently started to wear it again hoping that it’d bring us together again after I died. Maybe they finally decided to start working. I play with my matching ring that I have on my finger. I look at the strange crystal that looks like one of the ones my friend that liked to say she was a witch would have littering her room.

    “Those are interesting rings,” I hear Jack speak. When the fuck did this guy come in.

    “I guess so,” I mumble as I look at them in the light of the moon.

    “Where did you get it?” Jack presses me.

    “I’m not sure. Cass picked them up a while back while she was here in Cardiff. I’m not where she got them though.”

    “How long ago?”

    “A couple years ago I think it was shortly after we met.”

    “Really shortly after you met and you got matching rings like that.”